The Beginning and Background

Let me give you some back ground to start the blog with:

I am 26 as of January 2007, divorced with no children. I had a marriage that went very badly. As of this January he is re-married with children. We have NO contact. I now come with emotional baggage that runs deeper than most know. I have tried dating and it just has not been good. There have been some hearts that I know I have broken and other times it is mine that does the breaking. More often than not lately.... it is Mine.

I come in with very high standards of how I want to be treated but normally settle because I just want to be loved and give someone my love so badly. I end up hating myself in the end but this year things will be different. Now let's just see if this internet dating thing really works! From here I will keep a log of each guy, post parts of e-mails, overview of the dates - good and bad and just try to see where this all goes. If nothing else this should be freaking hilarious!!!!

But I do have a new theme song:

Title: Out There (just click on the song to play clip)
Artist: Sister Hazel
Album:Fortress


If she's out there somewhere-somewhere
I would give everything to know.
Just to hold and to finally have her,
Take me to sunrise from indigo

If it's to be
That there's just no one for me
I'll try not to cry much
So no one will see
But if it's to be
That there is anyone for me
Our hearts will shine
So everyone will see I've got some time,
So maybe if you're free I could use a friend
Just to talk to me

If she's out there somewhere-somewhere
I would give everything to know.
Just to hold and to finally have her,
Take me to sunrise from indigo

Spent most of my life without
Anyone near
Never cared what happened
I never saw clear
But I'm getting older now
And I'm, thinking of my end
And to leave without love
Or without a friend I've got some time
So maybe if you are free I could use a friend
Before I die

If she's out there somewhere-somewhere
I would give everything to know.
Just to hold and to finally have her,
Take me to sunrise from indigo

It's not over yet...
I'm still standing

If it's to be
That there's just no one for me
I will try not to cry much
So no one else will see I've got some time
So maybe if you're free I could use a friend
Just to talk to me

The song is much sappier when reading it and not hearing it. So now go and hear it..... I love it...... so here is my new battle march as I wade through my frogs...

When I find that Prince he better be ready to pucker up!!!



- A Martini Girl